For the love of: Motherhood

My plan was to do a “Yo Momma Monday” reflection on my life as Cecilia’s mama this Monday, but we were visiting family in Stockton and I wasn’t around my computer. Family is always the perfect excuse for not writing. This is my third year celebrating Mothers Day, and the second year that I get to spend with my kid. Technically, I did spend the first one with her too…but she was celebrating in my belly.

A couple weeks ago, my friend and I were talking about that quote “Everything changed and nothing changed” when we had our kids. Sure, my Friday nights are a little different and all of the money I do earn is spent on formula, gas and groceries…but in the bigger picture, what all has changed?923957_1414953962103156_2455092_n

I’m still me. And while my family has grown, they’re all still the same people. I was never huge into traveling, so it’s not like that changed. She didn’t derail my studies, she actually motivated me to apply to the school I’ve always wanted to attend, and not give up when it felt like everything was crumbling around me. She didn’t take me away from my big, fancy job. I was working at a boutique here and there and interning at a local paper. Nothing that I had to fret about giving up when I had her.

In fact, I actually like this version of myself better. I’m nicer. I don’t forget birthdays and I’m not scurrying around my house to find random items I can give people as gifts. I don’t check for my money and suddenly remember I spent it all at the bar the night before, or I left my credit card there. I know exactly where I spent it all – at the grocery store, duh. I stick with plans I make with people (for the most part), and when I do flake, it’s most likely because my daughter fell asleep right before I was planning on leaving or she’s been in tantrum city. And when I do have a beer, I enjoy it. Because that will be it for the night.

02b5cad6a97211e3874612e79814bf9e_8I appreciate and respect my parents (and pretty much all parents) a whole lot more and I’m constantly in awe of everything they did for me and my brother. I learn to pick my battles, and I don’t argue as much. I get frustrated but now I deal with it, and not just freak out and shut the world out.

She teaches me to not value all the stuff I have lying around, because she will probably walk all over them, or chew on them, or tear them apart. She teaches me to put up anything I truly value and to take good care of it, because if I let her have it, she will most likely destroy it. She knows when I need to take a break from the computer or my cell phone. And most of all, she teaches me not to take myself too seriously.

929315_642978312447553_726817861_nBecause of her, I have taught myself how to cook, have maintained a garden and have healthy relationships with all of my friends and family. Because of her, I focus on the people and things that hold the most importance, and let go of what I can. Instead of putting 10% into a million projects, I pick a few and put everything that I have left in me into them. Because of her, I push myself to continue going to school for something I love, because I want her to do the same when she’s ready.

Because of her, I have changed. But I will always be the same Amanda.

Weekly Wishes #8

 

weekly wishes 8Since my daughter has learned to walk, she has also learned to scoot her way off of anything she can scoot off – laps, our couch and sometimes even arms. So when she cried every time I put her down, I knew something was up. Turns out she was sick – and has been since last Wednesday. Therefore – my life has been full of cuddling, hugging, comforting, sleeping and doing homework, making gifts and cleaning when she naps.

This little break from blogging and social media has been refreshing and has given me a good outlook on what I want my life to be. I tend to sign myself up for every creative project under the sun, only to feel beaten down and exhausted when I never seem to get the results I want from them. This has seriously effected my wishes for this week.

Let’s just say that I did not get any of my wishes done last week. But I’m not going to worry about it. I had a little one who needed me more than anything else did. Now that she’s feeling better, it’s a whole new week. My business and fitness goals will clearly have to wait until after Christmas because making gifts at home is a whole lot more work than I thought. But it has pushed me to be creative every day, and I love it.

This week:

Tuesday: Finish Addie and Elena’s gifts (painting – my absolute favorite!). Get them wrapped and ready to go!

Wednesday: Finish my parents gifts (trying something new for my very first time. I’m excited to share my project after Christmas). Get those bad boys ready to go!

Thursday: Start canning (apple butter, pumpkin butter and sugar-free jam for my brother!). Start working on the rest of Sadie’s and Jackson’s gifts (screen printing – my other favorite!)

Friday: Do finishing touches on gifts that need them. Continue canning

Saturday: CANNING, CANNING and more CANNING! Finish the beanie.

Sunday: Make sure everything is wrapped and all of my canning is done.

Monday: Bake-a-thon (gingerbread cupcakes and a whole lot of cookies!) starts!

This list helps me put the week into perspective and by splitting up my projects like this, I think I can actually do it! My posts from now until the end of the season will be more Holiday inspired, since obviously that’s all on that’s on my mind right now.

Once all this is done, I will have a little more than a month off of school and I’m planning on working on my creative business ventures and really getting things done so I will not feel so overwhelmed when school starts. Less creative projects, more focus on the ones I already have.

So,  what are your weekly wishes? Write about them and link up to the Nectar Collective. You can also share them in the comments and connect with me on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and Pinterest. Here’s to hoping all of your holiday goals and wishes will be rewarded!